Musings of a Perfectionist

Woo, it's me again! I know, I know, I haven't written anything for *checks the last post* 27 days, but I have been busy. Sixth Form and all. Which I shall (maybe) talk about a bit today, because so many people do not realise what the IB is about and what it entails. You should understand why I'm so busy (and also, I should tell you that this past weekend I went to Browns for afternoon tea on Saturday, and I had harvest festival including a harvest lunch on Sunday morning. Very busy) I'm into the fifth week of school now, and I must say that I am exhausted. Hopefully, it will not be like this in the future, but I am really very tired. Another thing to say is that I'm kind of getting into a routine with homework and everything, so that's cool. BUT FIVE MORE DAYS UNTIL HALF TERM!! Anyway. *coughs* If you don't know anything about the IB, you should know that I'm doing six different subjects (3 periods of Physics, Social & Cultural Anthropology...

So exams have well and truly started (yay) and my friend still told me that I needed to update my blog, and voila! Hope you're happy, friend. ☺️ Exams done: French Reading/Listening, Biology 1, English Lit 1. To be honest, I think that they all went okay, for GCSEs. It still doesn't feel like I'm doing actual, proper exams though. Will it ever? I don't know. Maybe when I get my results. But that's ages away, and besides, I still have two more exams this week alone, so revising it is. Fear not, however, for I am having rests and tea breaks (lots of tea breaks, because I love tea). I've been watching TV- like Ghosts (on BBC iPlayer) which was created by the old Horrible Histories cast, and also the new Taskmaster episode (I was actually crying with laughter yesterday when we watched it, which is, of course, better than just crying). And tomorrow, as I go on Study Leave (which will be weird, no?) I will be hopefully going on a run. I mean, I could get u...

So I'm watching this program on BBC iPlayer called Generation, which is a documentary by George Lamb, and it's all about youth and politics and lack of opportunities for youth and the need for social change. One guy said that his ambitions are to own a house and have a decent job. And that will make him happy. That shouldn't be the expectation for kids these days. The fact that housing costs so much that actually owning a house seems to be a pipe dream is stupid, and just wanting a job that means the bills can be paid is ridiculous. I do realise that I come from a family where we are expected to go to university and that I live in a pretty wealthy area, but I feel that I can comment on these things. Buying a house seems impossible, owning a car/paying for insurance is not going to happen, and I'll be paying off university loans for the rest of my life. I do have dreams, ambitions. I am (most likely) going to university and get a job that I love (beca...

So I wrote something last night (or was it this morning? I will never know) and I'd like to share it with as many people as possible, simply because it is a big issue for me. So, read it, digest it, and share it with others. Start a revolution- dare to dream again! When you're young, they teach you to dream. They ask you what you want to be, they tell you that you can do anything, that you have every right to aim for the stars. So with bright eyes and big smiles, you tell them. You tell them what you dream of doing, who you dream of being, and they smile and they tell you that it is a good dream to have. And then you grow up slightly, and your eyes start to dim and your smile starts to fade and they stop telling you that it is a good dream. They start freezing when you tell them, staring at you with a kind of morbid fascination before saying faintly that it's a nice dream And then your eyes are dry from crying and you can't remember how to smile but you're...